When you just need to laugh…….really HARD!

Overwhelmed and Exhausted

I am so worn out tonight. I feel completely drained physically, emotionally, and mentally. It has been such a long rough week. My supervisor who taught me everything I know, left the company today. So needless to say I got a new supervisor this week. It is a BIG change, I’m never good  with change. Part of my rough week was a nasty fight with a friend, and my hours at work have been cut.

All of this on top of being overly emotional, thanks to the little guy (or girl) in my tummy is a bad combination. I just want to sit here in this same spot all weekend and cry (ok continue crying). I am sad, anxious, nervous, extremely emotional, and over the top tired.

It may sound very whiney, and who am I kidding maybe it is. But through all of this, God has been blessing immensly. Kenny and I started our couple devotions the other night, which is very encouraging. And although my hours have been cut at work, it has left me with more time to spend with Kenny. And the biggest miraculous gift God has ever given to me, is being created in the depths of my being as we speak, who could ask for more of a blessing than that?

Even when I am at my weakest point and completely worn out, tired, and exhausted then I will lean on God to get me through it.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:5-7

What is real worship?

John, one of the youths; did such an amazing job teaching for youth group this week. We were all so proud of him. Most importantly, God was beaming from ear to ear watching His son teach His word to his peers. It moved my heart. John, good job buddy!

This is part of what he taught about. What worship really is, and what it isn’t. It isn’t a feeling, a type of music, or a performance. It’s a way of life, not a song. It isn’t what WE can GET out of it, but rather what WE can GIVE to God. It truly is an amazing concept to wrap our heads around that worship really has nothing to do with us, it is ALLLL about HIM.

Love Song for Baby!

Artist: Disciple
Song: After The World

 
You break the glass, try to hide your face
Recorded lines that just will not erase
And buried in your loss of innocence
You wonder if you’ll find it again 

Was I there for the worst of all your pain?
And was I there when your blue skies ran away?
Was I there when the rains were flooding you off your feet?
Those were My tears falling down for you, falling down for you 

I’m the One that you’ve been looking for
I’m the One that you’ve been waiting for
I’ve had My eyes on you ever since you were born
I will love you after the rain falls down
I will love you after the sun goes out
I’ll have My eyes on you after the world is no more 

Did I arrange the light of your first day?
Did I create the rhythm your heart makes?
Could you believe when your candle starts to fade?
I want to be the One that you believe
Could take it all away, take your heart away 

Isn’t My life a clear sign since I have crossed over this chasm
To fill the space between Me and you?
And I will do it all over again
Just look for Me, just wait for Me 

The One you’ve been looking for
The One you’ve been waiting for
You won’t have to look anymore
I must have listened to this song a dozen times today on the way home from work. And God had this playing on my ipod just for me today, it brought me so much peace and joy. I have to admit that I have had so many fears about bringing a child into this world, for many reasons. But God played this song and it brought so much peace. "Did I arrange the light of your first day? Did I create the rhythm your heartmakes? Could you believe when your candle starts to fade? I want to be the One that you believe Could take it all away, take your heart away" I felt God telling me He loves this little creature, that He is creating inside of me, his hands are forming every ascpect of His creation. He hold this tiny little beating heart in the palm of His hand, and will NEVER let it go. It hit me and touched me so deeply how precious and how loved by God this little one is, before we even know this person. It chokes me up BIG TIME, partly because even Two and a Half Men made me cry the other day (pregnancy hormones, grrrr...) but also in the pure peace God has given my heart. He knows what He is doing, this is not an accident, He WILL provide, and HE will raise this child through us. Oh and by the way, any type of song with regards to forming, or creating a child, anything that can even swing that way has taken on a whole new meaning to me. And the child isnt even here yet! Wow how God changes the heart little by little to prepare...it really is amazing. It seems like just a few weeks ago I had no emotional connection to baby yet, I guess it happens little by little   Either way, it's exciting.

Valentines Dinner

For Valentine’s day, we stayed in and I made a nice dinner. It was alot of fun.

My hubby brought me home this beautiful rose filled vase for Valentine’s Day, it looked perfect on the table.

Dinner consisted of; marinated rib eye steak, buttered shrimp, sauteed green beans, and roasted garlic mashed potatoes.

Now that is called love….to have made shrimp for the boy. I hate seafood, and typically can’t even stand the smell of it. I got through it, and he loved it. It was worth all the gagging!

And for dessert, what other than homemade chocolate covered strawberries….

Tragic News

Over the weekend, I recieved tragic news that my 21 year old cousin, Tiffany died in a car accident. It has been such a rough week to say the least. Please pray for my family, my Aunt and Uncle, my younger cousins, and my Grandma. Times have been so hard on all of us with the passing of my Gram just last month, and my Grandpa a couple months before that. This news is so devestating and painful. I know God has His arms wrapped around me and my family and is holding us, and greiving with us..

Here are some aricles I found on Tiff’s passing

http://www.signonsandiego.com/news/riverside/20090208-0919-trafficfatal.html

http://www.pe.com/localnews/murrieta/stories/PE_News_Local_S_murteach10.47f4b2c.html?npc

http://www.nctimes.com/articles/2009/02/10/news/californian/murrieta/z796c236235df306f8825755900798e18.txt

Big Bear Trip

Last weekend we took the youth group to big bear for some boardin. Everyone seemed to have a really good time.

We started out having dinner at Portillo’s, I love it!

We had to pull over on the way up the mountain because chains were mandatory going up, the roads were really icy, the drive took much longer than normal.

We Finally made it to the cabin, were here and ready to sleep!

Everyone was so excited to see over a foot of fresh snow in the morning.

It was sooooooo cold on the mountain.

We played alot of games, this one was who can put the latex glove on there head and pop it the quickest.

This game was really funny to watch. Panty hose on the head, eating a bananna through it the fastest.

The sleding didnt last long until the crazy snowball fight broke out! Eeeck..

We also went bowling while we were up there at the bowling barn, my-o-my these kiddo’s are so competitive :p

What a weekend it was. The kid’s had a great time, and Big Bear was beautiful.

More Ultrasound

Wow, what a blessing to listen to our little spuds thumper! It was fast and steady. And the little spud is growing  SO fast! Truly amazing.

Superbowl 09

We enjoyed spending time with some fam over the weekend for the superbowl. What an exciting game, although it would have been better if the Cardinals won. Boo hoo…