2 months old

Josiah turned two months old last week! He is growing so so fast. He is more alert and active. He is moving his arms and hands a lot more too, it’s almost like he has made some new discovery that he never noticed before. He is standing on his legs, not by himself but his legs are standing straight up and holding his body. He is a very strong boy. He has gained some weight. I weighed him the day after he turned 2 months old and he was 10 pounds! I can really see his face filling out the most, he has a little double chin and is getting some pudgy on his little legs. It is so cute! He is growing out of some of his newborn clothes, he is wearing more of the 0-3 size. He started laughing during this month, he has done it a few times when we play with him and tickle his tummy! And has also laughed in his sleep, I wonder where he gets that from LOL it is pretty hysterical! His sleeping pattern is getting just a tad bit better for mommy at night-time. He wakes up pretty regularly at about 2, then 5ish ever night. Better than every hour thats for sure! It is so much fun playing with him now that he is growing and seems more sturdy. He smiles so much, he is generally such a happy little guy, and also very active. He has his two month checkup tomorrow (along with many shots, poor fella) wish us luck!

He started playing with his activity mat this month, he loves talking to the yellow giraffe, it is so funny!

Halloween Fun

Josiah had his Halloween party with all of his little friends. He was dressed up as Pooh Bear, the costume is so big on him even though it is newborn size. He looks super cute in it though…

Ken and I carved our pumpkins tonight. I was totally impressed with his, mine was ok. Mine is the bat on the left, his is the cat on the right…

Life is ever changing

Life has  been rough lately. Don’t get me wrong I am in love with the precious new addition to our family, he really is a keeper! I am at home taking care of him all day, until I have to go back to work at the end of December. I enjoy spending time with him and watching him grow. But there is a part of me that feels like the outside world (and my inside world at times) is flying by outside the walls of my life and I dont know where its going. Let me elaborate… I spend my day’s nursing Josiah, bathing him, changing his diapers, taking walks with him, burping him, hushing him to sleep, laying on the floor interacting with tummy time, talking to him, singing to him, and occasionally taking naps with him (if I’m lucky). That the world I used to know of uninterrupted tv shows like Greys, CSI, Private Practice, and Melrose Place are long gone. I try to watch something and maybe catch the first few minutes while feeding and changing a diaper all to find myself wondering why in the world Izzy left Alex at the end of the show. It’s too frustrating I give up trying. Not only media days, but more importantly my walk with Christ. One thing that I can say has increased during this time in my life is the fact that I’m praying more. I need to in order to stay sane through countless sleepless nights. But I am saddened that I have no devotional life. I know I am at fault for this, it seems impossible to find time, I know I need to find it though. I miss blogging, I miss scrape booking, and cooking.  What happened to being able to take a shower in the mornings, or talk on the phone when I needed to. I really feel out of tuned, and out of wack. I miss having a daily routine so I can maintain what little sense of control I think  I have. It leaves me feeling a little lost. I am trying to find my routine more in the weekly stuff I am able to do, church, youth group, mommy support group, weight watchers. But it is challenging.

I say all of this not to complain about becoming a mommy. But to vent about some things I miss. I am really head over heals in love with our little boy, but I miss a part of me that I feel has died. I am constantly reminded by family and friends that this is only for a season.  He will grow up (tears) and we will become more of a family unit. I cant wait to trade in my “media” time for a family movie night or game night. And I would give up scrape booking time to take him to the park to play, or cheer on the sidelines of a soccer game in a heart beat. But for now, none of these things are an option. Josiah just isn’t at the stage in life yet. I am relishing every moment with him little, and I am thrilled about the future. For today…I will be here with a little drooling Josiah on my chest, and that is more than ok!

1 month old

Josiah turned one month old! He is growing so much, he has put on a few pounds and is growing in length. I feel like it is flashing before my eyes- his growth! It’s really amazing. He is becoming more alert, and awake just a little bit longer during the day. He is also trying to copy our mouth movements when we play with him, it is so cute. He hasn’t mastered it yet, but it’s really cute to see him try. At about the start of his fourth week he started sleeping in his own room, such a big boy! He has been really fussy in the evenings, not sure why. Most the time he seems perfectly fine, just fussy. Other times he is gassy. It has been quit a battle trying to figure out what it is in my diet I am eating that doesnt agree with him.

Here I am world, a growing boy at 1 month old!

Crib Time

We put Josiah in his own crib a few weeks ago because he was waking up every 45 minutes or so when he was in his cradle in our room. And it was rough! It was so rough I let him sleep in bed with us a few nights just so I can sleep, I didnt like him in bed with us at all. It is not a restful sleep for me, and I dont want him getting used to it. A friend at my mommy support group suggested putting him in his own crib and in his room and he might not mind it, and may not wake up as much because he cant smell me and know I’m close by, so he might stay asleep longer. I figured couldn’t hurt to try. So we did, and the first night he slept about 4 hours right off the bat, then woke up about every 2. We have been doing this ever since. Guess he is just a big boy and wanted his own room! Here are some morning pics. (he makes some of the funniest faces sometimes!)